Aww, Kat, it sounds like you and I are kind of in the same place with a lot of stuff. Make sure you take care of you.
I completely understand about letting go. My D21 posted on her FB yesterday that she took her internship in Albany and likely spent her last summer at home in 2014. It made my heart sink in my stomach. On the heels of that post, her BFF posted me a happy birthday message and said she would be a stand-in and go on froyo dates with me anytime I want. I'll take her up on it (I did all fall). It just made me sad.
I can hardly remember a time when I wasn't MOM. My role has changed and is still changing, and although I'm so glad I don't have to do a lot of stuff I did back when, I'm sad too. I understand. I really wish we lived closer. I could use a big dose of you.
Make sure you schedule fun girl things with them. For some reason, it really helps me get in a better mood when I do that with D18. We're going to see Joseph & the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat in a few weeks. It's a perennial fave of ours (we all sing along), so when it came on a TV commercial, she pointed to it. I'm looking forward to that.
FTR, Mr. Wonderful is also kind of sad about all of this too. We wound up talking about it some on Easter, and I think his feelings are compounded with his reality of losing his family earlier than I did. Granted, it was his decision, but...
Gentle reminder to a friend: you don't have to be everything to everybody. You just have to show up every day and be the best Kat you can be at that moment in time. Take the pressure off yourself, okay?
Hugs and love,
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
