Quote: I would have never believed i'd stand by him this long, but I see him in there struggling. And I believe he's a good man who's gotten very lost. Some people get that, some don't.
I, too, feel about my H as you do about your H. My H is really messed up and thinks alcohol is the answer.
I came on this morning feeling very lost, very confused about a lot of things. Had this feeling of dread after reading a few threads. Don't really know why either.
So I called H to see how he was today, how is day was going. We talked about the job he's at, about how busy he is/isn't.
Asked him if he'd pick up S after work as I have a haircut appt. I just needed to know that H wasn't against me today or maybe that he wasn't withdrawing, that my mind was just playing tricks on me. Just needed to talk to H.
I had mentioned to H that I was going to stop in at his local saloon tomorrow night...what with it being St. Pat's day and H is very Irish. I don't know if he liked the idea or not. OW bartends there once in awhile, his drinking buddies hang out there..so not sure what I'll be walking into if I do stop in.
H then asked me why I was calling? I said to see how his day was going. H thought I was calling to tell him I had some basketball tickets for him.
I think I just did a good thing here, called H to talk to HIM, not for any other reason. Possibly made H feel good, I feel better now.
Some days I just need chocolate. Save save it for my afternoons usually, once in awhile have in the mornings. TODAY is a chocolate morning. And I feel better!
