Thanks job, unfortunately the cleaning is not full time after all - seems my boss was just venting about her permanent cleaner being useless and used me for a few days to do a proper clean of the units - back to normal tomorrow. Never mind, it was work and helped towards this weeks' rent.
Managed to flood the laundry again, this time the hose detached from the w/machine - should have checked it when I moved in, so my fault. So wet carpet again for the second time in a fortnight !! I have never had this happen before; is karma trying to tell me something - my friend said I seem to have so much bad luck following me around, I must have been a serial killer in a past life !!
Still cant bring myself to buy furniture, I keep looking at it as couch or rent - hmmm rent wins. I know it will happen and I should not be so materialistic, but after cleaning yet more mouldy windows and walls in my new place, scrubbing floors and toilets for work, the floods, not being able to afford to set myself back up again and worried about where the rent is coming from each week - I am taking a good hard look at my life and think "seriously, is this what my life has come to?" This is not what I want for myself - so how to change it ....I know only I can change it ....but I have been asking myself the same question for months now and still come up with nothing.
It seems that I really cant move off the life I was leading and the life I was about to have with h - our empty nest, second honeymoon stage of life. Stuck in the past - I am stuck with h. Its most infuriating - how weak am I, allowing this man to dominate my thoughts, emotions and life. I never imagined I would be like this - more like a kick him to the curb kinda gal.
On an amusing note - so for those who are following me, and those who have just joined my journey; I got given a session with a psychic by a friend last year; its not something I am in to, had never been to one before but was open to the idea - so off I go, a bit disappointed to find a normal looking lady in her garden shed, but hey. Long story short - she said a lot of things, I have a dvd of the reading. Everything so far has come to fruition, freaky or what - there is a man who will make overtures towards me, she felt he is from the uk and my reaction will be "goodness no, yuk" WELL- yesterday I received an email from a guy I have known since teens, he was declaring love for me; said he has been in love with me for 30yrs and will be forever!eek - He apologized for not saying anything when I was over in the uk but thought he had more time (how much time did he want, he has had 30yrs ha ha) but I jetted back to NZ before he had a chance to say anything - OMG and YUK and EEK.
So I now have the unenviable task of shattering his world by saying there is no chance - not interested - which I feel terrible about as I know how it feels to be rejected. I really did not need this, his timing was the worst ever lol.
So my lady has been right on everything so far - my reading goes to June 2016 so still have a way to go, she did do a short prediction for further, saying all is fine, I am financially ok and happy, I live in an idyllic place and she did say she knows who with, but I said I don't want to know. Whatever this is, whether there is something to it or not, its nice to have the image of me being ok in the future :o)
Right, just made a chocolate cake - as chocolate cake solves all problems :o)- so going to make some gooey icing for it,as lets face it, if i am going to blast the calorie intake it has to be done to full effect.
