Here are some things I figured out today: The reason I believe he got upset yesterday is because the conversation was too personal. We can talk about the kids, politics, family, sports, other people etc. But not anything personal like that...I guess there is pros and cons to that...the fact that he was upset could mean that he does actually care or maybe he just is not willing to get personal with me anymore. I know, I know, stop focusing on him...easy to say, hard to do.

Also, I think part of the reason I'm having such a hard time is because I have no idea what is working and what isn't. Or, maybe nothing is working. He's all over the map with some things but has been pretty constant with the no physical contact and sleeping in separate rooms since day 1.

Today I came home from running and he was in the yard with a sales guy from TruGreen lawn. He scheduled them to come do our lawn. We had talked about this a couple of years ago and he didn't want to spend the money (he was making much more $$ then!) I'm excited that we may get a lawn back but again it's one of those things that I just don't get but will go with it.

Going to try to continue to GAL more. I have a pretty busy week, working all week again. I ran tonight, HS softball game tomorrow, run Wed, a bbq at the beach with friends on Thurs and I should have a softball game on Friday.

Last edited by lost18; 04/07/15 04:06 AM.

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since