Do you have the game "hitting the pot" in your country? This is exactly how I feel. I am a toddler with a spoon in my hand, waiting for the noise of the pot. I am hitting on plenty of things, waiting for the right noise inside of my mind, so that I can finally say : "alright, now I understand."
What is it you MUST understand? She was not happy enough to stay faithful. There. Now, what can YOU DO about your situation? Banging on pots won't help and neither will the futile effort to find a "good answer" to your pain.
Work on being a partner that only a fool would leave but no, that does not mean to pursue her.
Did you answer the question of what your wife would say about you and the marriage if she were here? B/c that's a great place to start.
Time to Dig deep. The real journey in life is in inward one.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
