Do you have the game "hitting the pot" in your country? This is exactly how I feel. I am a toddler with a spoon in my hand, waiting for the noise of the pot. I am hitting on plenty of things, waiting for the right noise inside of my mind, so that I can finally say : "alright, now I understand."
Me 46 W 45 S16 D14 S10 M 20 yrs in June T22 12/14 sleeping in different rooms 01/07/15 she said she wants a separation 02/26/15 I moved out