The things that you have written about what he has said. The things that you have been writing about what he is doing. Look at them from a different set of eyes. Not as his wife, but as a person who is looking from the outside in.
Look at the comments that he is making to you. He is falling and twirling around and doesn't know how to stop it. He is in a tug of war right now and satan is trying to pull him back to the OW and the Lord is pushing him towards you and your son. He is in the fight of his life right now and the best thing that you can do for him is to be praying and fasting for that man.
Satan is pulling him hard because he wants to destroy this man. This man is in a spiritual battle for his soul and you need to fight for him with your prayers. He is trying to pull away from the OW and satan keeps playing things in his head. The man said that he wanted to shoot himself to make the pain go away.
Read that depression stage. This man is in agony and doesn't know how to make it end. He doesn't know what to do. He knows the right thing to do and satan is also placing desires in his heart, that his spirit knows are wrong. That is the reason for the heavy drinking. That is the reason for the desparate call to you last night. He is screaming for someone to show him the way.
You can not make the choice for him, but you can share the Lord with him. Don't think about how this is affecting you emotionally right now. I know that is very difficult to do because I have to do that myself quite regularly. It is very difficult to die to self, but your husband is in a bad part right now and needs your strength and prayers.
The picture is becoming clearer and clearer the more he speaks to you and the more things that you put out there that he is saying. Yes, how he is treating you is wrong, but he is like a teenager who can't find himself. I have seen so many people when I was in high school going through this and fighting a demon inside of them that was constantly at them.
He has opened himself up to someone else and allowed her to come in and become a part of him. Now he is trying to cut her out of himself and that is very difficult to do. Yes, you have every right to be upset with him because of how complicated he has made this. Yes, he is reaping what he has sown and he must, but you have the answer that he is looking for and somehow you have to get the message across to him.
Pray for him like you have never prayed for him before.
