It's a nightmare. Wake me up.

[MrBond]

"She is just reading a book about mars venus and starting all over. Does anyone ever heard about it?"

Yes. You should read it also to give you an insight as to what she's thinking.

"She lied to me and the therapist about her "reasons" why she did not want to work on this M. This sh** about "if I stay in this M, I will end up in the same situation as I was with my schizophrenic mother".It is all BS."

That's not entirely true. From reading your story at the beginning, you can see how the marriage started falling apart long before the OM came into play. You both played a part in it.

"I am so angry right now and sad at the time. It is intense right now and it [censored] out all of my energy. Does it really help? GAL and detachment?"

Yes it does. You actually have to do it and get rid of the resentment and anger you have going on right now. It's hard but it can be done.