I am exhausted. emotional day today. We are supposed to have mediation appt today. My W is trying to bail out because she can't find a baby sitter. It looks like after all the emotional preparation and anticipatory anxiety, I am not sure the appt the appt will even happen today. I spent hours making phone calls back and forth.

I had mentioned previously that I looked at Ws phone records and she is averaging over 6000-7000 texts per month. That is equivalent to 8-10 texts per hour around the clock. I am paying for this phone. I have been going back-and-forth-about cutting my Ws phone service off. I have not cut her off until now because I may need evidence later about her erratic behavior.

In light of this, I confronted my W today, telling her that I know what she is doing and that she has a serious problem. I told her that our kids need a mother. It did get heated. I told her I am ready and now eager to move ahead with the dissolution process.

I am emotionally drained. what am I doing???

Is anybody out there?

RAI


Me 48 XW 45
lots o' kids
D April 2017