Focused on Me and My Son 2

[Sherman333]

Just realized how long the last post was... talk about a brain dump.

Anyway, earlier today the STBXW called about a possible reconcillation. Turns out the OM got a little weirded out that I knew so much about him and that he's her boss... EA/PA violates the company ethics. He won't let her move in with him anymore because he's worried. We'll see how long that lasts. Either way, there will be a letter sent to their coporate office once I have the agreement signed.

So anyway, even the fact that the STBXW is waffling, he's taking it badly. According to her, he stated that all he was a fantasy for her and that she was just playing with him.... hm... maybe some truth to that.

So she wanted me to tell her that I wanted to reconcile... I'm not sure and can't commit to it. I'm willing to talk through a few things, but it absolutely CAN NOT be how it was. I told her as such. That she would need to be in therapy to work on her issues, etc.

That the relationship is busted down to the foundation and we'd have to decide to rebuild it. I won't be plan B. That she would have to choose and stick with the choice. That I won't get back onto the rollercoaster without proof from her that she wants this and wants to be with me. That I would'nt accept anything else than the best of her in the attempt. I told her the ball is in her court.

Since all this has happened I've been focused on what my life would look like post BD. About the possibilities and women are expressing some interest in me. I'm not dating and if I'm out, I always make sure I'm home by S7's bed time. I told her this as well.

She said that maybe this is her way of letting go of me. I told her are you kidding me? After all the crap she told me about how we were done, etc. What does she expect?

At the end of the call she got really emotional and sobbed... "I've ruined your life, S7's life, OMs life, and FS8's life. Maybe I should just go..." and she hung up.

She tried calling me back maybe an hour later... I let it go to voicemail.

She did make a phone call about getting FS8 back. So she's at least partially serious.

Personally, I think she's more afraid of being alone than she wants to be with me.

I needed to close the joint checking... more victoria secret charges kept showing up. So we left did that and we're at a Jungle Java playland letting him burn off some of his energy. He's having fun.