BW911 I do not know if it is possible. My emotions are like a pendulum.

Today was S16 birthday and she was friendly but distant. She is just reading a book about mars venus and starting all over. Does anyone ever heard about it? It was also important to her to have her phone with her all the time.

I am full of sadness. A deep f****ing sadness, that I have not felt for many yrs. She lied to me and the therapist about her "reasons" why she did not want to work on this M. This sh** about "if I stay in this M, I will end up in the same situation as I was with my schizophrenic mother". It is all BS. She fell in love with another man, lied about it, made up false reasons, blamed me for everything and now she is reading self help books to make her feel better about her decision. It is anger and sadness and I feel totally trapped in this sitch. I can do nothing about it, but watch her tearing down a M of 20yrs, because she "fell in love". I mean she is a mature woman with tree kids and she thinks and behaves like a teenager.

I am so angry right now and sad at the time. It is intense right now and it [censored] out all of my energy. Does it really help? GAL and detachment?

Last edited by koalada; 04/06/15 07:09 PM.
Me 46
W 45
S16 D14 S10
M 20 yrs in June T22
12/14 sleeping in different rooms
01/07/15 she said she wants a separation
02/26/15 I moved out