T2, Deb, KAW and Minnie, pity party is coming to end. Thank you for the hugs they really helped!
KAW I think you were are right on with me doubting myself today. I guess when I see people post how their S is treating them, my blood boils, too. I'm being as strong as I can be right now and that's the best I can do--for now.
H doesn't like himself I know that, I know why he says the things he says as a reaction to the things I say--he feels left out and that I don't think of him when making plans. I have been working on this, slowly and sometimes I think I sabotage myself by doing what doesn't work--old habits.
And it's not that he is like this all of the time. There are a lot of good things that come from him, too.
I just needed to lay down my burdens for awhile and rest, cry for myself, dry my tears and pick them back up and carry on. Knowing that I don't have to do it alone.
H called me later this morning. Told me he wasn't having the best day today. This is a first, that he shared that with me. A guy (23) he works with was killed last night in a car wreck and another guy (h's age)he works with has cancer that was treated and now has invaded his whole body. We're both having bad days I guess
Cathy is feeling better and the sobbing has stopped. I don't know what comes over me!
