I am so sorry that H is acting out again like this. I know how frustrating this is for you and I wish that he could see what a wonderful woman he has as his wife; that he could see how wonderful things can be with you and his son.
Quote: He won't hug me, he won't be there for me right now. My S's hugs can only go so far and there are days when I need some bigger arms around me.
I guess I'm wondering when it's my turn.
I can actually FEEL this as I'm in the same boat. I wish we lived closer to one another but a cyber hug is the best I can do right now.
I was thinking about my H this morning: I was thinking that he is very angry because he wants to continue doing whatever it is he is doing. He knows it's wrong but WANTS to do it anyway. He hates himself because he hates what he is doing. He blames me for "pushing" him to have ow (potentially---and all ASSumptions on my part), to move out, etc.....IOW: projecting his feelings about himself onto me. Do you think this is the case with your H? Sounds like it.
Please do something nice for yourself Cathy. I know what it's like to basically be a single mom with a young child but we can still get in something nice for ourselves.
