Complex No. 6 - The turtle and the rabbit

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Few good days. Easter today was decent.
Spent all day with W basically. Went to family brunch in the morning. Then to lunch at her moms. We drove together. Lot of car time today too.
It was pretty easy going. Casual, easy conversations. Nothing serious or so.
The whole day was like nothing ever happened, fun conversations with the famil etc. but without any affections between me and W whatsoever. I guess I cannot expect anything from it, neither did I, which is good.
I also didn't get nervous or so. I cannot deny that W looked very attractive to me today. But what am I gonna do right?^^
It just feels like a bit of a limbo right now, waiting on my greencard. What's gonna happen after? I have NO clue, but also no expectations.
Right now I feel like I'm slacking a bit really working hard on myself. I just feel ok these days, do my thing, meet people, have fun, work. Just in a good spot right now, without the "push" of needing to work on myself. It's good but I still want to make improvements, read a book again or so...I feel a little selfish right now.