Masterpiece - a little more progress...

[Jer2911]

So we actually had a really nice Easter Sunday... The kids had a great time, W and I got along very well, and she was much more pleasant and relaxed with the rest of the family than she has been at the previous holiday get-togethers over the past several months. This was a major change from her behavior at Thanksgiving and Christmas.

And W did notice my dress -- and commented on it saying that I looked really nice. And then -- when we were having Easter lunch at her parents' house, just before we all started eating I looked across the table at one of our kids and then at her and she winked at me... then I caught her looking at me 4 or 5 times throughout lunch. I noticed that because the first time it happened I thought it was just a fluke -- and she looked away very quickly when I noticed... And she did that every time I noticed her looking at me.

I am not even going to try to interpret what it means... OW is definitely still in the picture as far as I can tell (from the fact that there is still texting going on and I assume Skyping and/or phone calls in the middle of the night). I say "as far as I can tell" because while I do observe the texting (which she still tries to hide from me even though everything is out in the open), I need my sleep and I am not getting up in the middle of the night anymore to find out if they are still Skyping and calling each other. She is also still sleeping downstairs. We are getting along much better now -- and over this entire weekend she has engaged me in much more conversation -- about topics other than the kids, schedules, stuff around the house, etc. and in most cases she has been the one to initiate the conversation.

While it was nice to get the compliment on the dress this morning and then to observe the glances across the table and the wink today (which, honestly, I can't remember the last time I caught her staring at me across a table or across a room -- it's probably been years since that has happened), none of that means very much while OW is still involved.

So for now -- everything is still moving forward towards separation, but with much more peace within the house... And I'm actually doing really great, feeling very good about where I am headed with my own growth, excited about the job prospects, and feeling very at peace with life within this MLC mess. Just trying to really appreciate every single positive, peaceful family moment as we have them, and thanking God for those moments because each of those moments -- especially right now -- is such a huge blessing.