Cherry. I dealt with the same kind of feelings yesterday. I had my boys with me out at a big easter egg hunt and..... like you BAM. Instantly feeling horrible, seeing all the families out enjoying each other and laughing and here I was, essentially a single dad, and his 2 boys with no spouse in sight.
But, I took heart in the fact that I was with them and enjoyed being with them. Focusing on them helped pull me out of that funk pretty quick.
Hang in there Cherry, and I agree, pouring your heart out probably wouldn't be a good idea. I personally sent a text today wishing a happy easter to her, but that was it.
Me-35 W- 30 Married Jul 2010
S - 4 BD - 23 Mar 15 I responded to filing 27 Mar 15 OM suspected in Feb OM confirmed 7 Apr
Song Casting crowns - Broken together (amazing song check it out on youtube)