W and I had a phone conversation regarding S16 birthday tomorrow. She was cold and short with words. She might be upset because of the money or me not supporting her therapist training weekend. And I was very close to apologize and do everything to make her feel good. But I did not.
My normal path would have been to speak soft and offer her any help she needs. That would have felt natural to me. I am not good in seeing her in a bad mood. I always feel the desire to jump in and do everything that makes her day better. But I have made the decision to become a man with balls and with a straight and confident talk. I do not want to be afraid of her moods any longer.
She once said to me, that she admired couples that would argue hard about stuff and that she wished we would have been more like them. But every time I took a firm stand on my position and talked straight to her, she could not stand it. She became upset and left the room or moved the conversation to "emotions" and then any argument was useless.
Please help me on this. I have two hearts beating in my chest. One is willing to take a firm stand. If she wants to live without me and if I am not worth to work on this M, than she have to deal with her problems alone. I will focus on the children, but no more mister nice or best friend.
The other heart wants to show her, how caring and supportive I can be. That she can rely on me, if she needs me and that I am the one man in her life that will always be there for her.
I am very confused and I guess you can read that fact in and between the lines.
Me 46 W 45 S16 D14 S10 M 20 yrs in June T22 12/14 sleeping in different rooms 01/07/15 she said she wants a separation 02/26/15 I moved out
