I know how you feel. I was at my h parents house for easter. The whole time they were treating me so good. At one point t I wanted to break down. But I resisted the tears. I cried on the way home of course. I miss my h too a d just want him back. Stay strong and continue with the 18th and going dark. I have and it's working to my advantage. Good luck and if you need to talk I'm here for you
Me 34 H 33 Married 2006 S5 D2 BD Jan 2015 EA/PA He moved out 2/2/2015 Came back 5/2015 Filed divorce papers 8/21/2015