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[Vanilla]

Errod

Please drop the destructive image in your mind. Otherwise it will grow. Think of making love to grandma.

Tell your mind to STOP! Replace the image with a fire alarm going off, the bed leg breaking etc.

V

Oh my...I would like to distance myself from this - it's taken my example to a whole 'nutha level!

-PM

Apologies PM, it is the English humour asserting itself. I can say Mooooose if you want instead!

V

[errod]

First Holiday not together. This is a little difficult. I get to D14 at 11 and then we have plans together the rest of the day.

There are just so many things I want to say to my W. Easter is the biggest day in our history together. But I am not going to, it will only make her think she has the upper hand again.

So when I pick up D14 I am going to go in all dressed up with cologne on get her. Be extremely happy and slightly cocky towards W again and get out of there ASAP.

Today is going to be harder on her then it is me. Plus OM is in Florida for the week with his family.

[Vanilla]

Errod

Delicious! Wonderful 180.

V

[errod]

My mom called her this morning which I wish she didn't. They will always think of my W as a D because of how young she was when they took her in.

W thinks that she has my family's support forever, but due to the fact I would like to get back together I am not giving them the full story. I think I need to soon so they cut her off. Then she will have nobody but the OM and see how she enjoys life then.

[Vanilla]

Errod

If you wish to be open with your family, do so because it is time, because it feels authentic for you and your family can support you.

My H said in front of my cousin that my father 93 should smother my mother 90 (with Alzheimer) because she was a miserable woman! This forced my sitch into the open, my wonderful dad forgave H, said he was an idiot. my glam sis not so forgiving.

Be open with your family because it is what you want and not as a punishment for W.

Personally I would give the bare bones and leave the question of OM in the air. Although I did make it clear to my family that I was not wayward. I simply said "there has been no one else in my life than my H".

This is too important to be destructive. Your D needs respect in this, and the reason will emerge. Truth can not be kept covered in these circumstances.

V

[errod]

This is starting to get easier. I was able to execute the plan again. I was dressed in nice clothes wearing cologne. I went straight in sat with D14 and played with the dogs. W tried telling me what she was up to a few times. Then I just to D14 I am ready to go. So we left.

W leaned in to smell me a couple of times. She then said after Easter when we left but I just ignored her.

Now of course I am riding a little bit of a high right now feeling good. Then I will come back down from it and miss her like crazy.

[Vanilla]

You are detaching from the outcome whilst with W and it is great for your PMA. Now for some plans to chase the blues away on your own dime. Same principle.

You got it covered!

V

[errod]

Today has been an exhausting. D14 and I are at friends and everyone keeps talking about old stories. They all include W and I. It is hard remembering all those good times knowing they will never happen again.

[errod]

Well I got through another day. There were a few difficult moments due to talking about old times with friends and all include W and I. But other then that I honestly feel she can't hurt me anymore. The fact that she was able to spend a Holiday without talking to D14 at all really shows her character at this point in her life.

Now I just can't wait until all this is over. I hope the judge listens to what D14 tells him and lets us just move on with our lives. D14 is afraid of the way she is acting and does not want to be there when she decides to stop using hotels and starts using her house. W has a temper and has shredded D14 to pieces with her words and has hit her before. And that was when she was someone of a functioning person. Now she is an absolute train wreck.

The problem I am going to have is she is a Dentist in the town and in a small town like this people are all about titles. So it won't be as cut and dry as it should be.

[errod]

It is crazy how things just click one day. I don't really wonder about what W is doing anymore. I don't expect or wait for any texts or phone calls. I have not called or texted her first in a week.

My only concern anymore is my D14 and her safety. She has brought up some concerns to me and I need to make sure I keep her protected. I have some female friends that are helping to fill the female role model gap while things get taken care of.

I can't get over the fact that W is so consumed with this dude that she is totally neglecting D14. She doesn't even talk to her. That is probably guilt because of her actions and the fact that D14 is my mini me everybody always has said that.