probably you should try something different? so it is not the same routine. but I can certainly relate. I have many of those days. pushing through seems like too much work. but there is no real alternative. i have my kids to be strong for. even the outlook there looks bleak. but ya never know. W could get hit by a bus tomorrow friends keep telling me, it WILL change. dont fight it. if you can even help it along the way, thats a bonus. i've just spent the last 20 minutes fuming. Before that I was sad. Knowing that i'm not alone, that others have and are feeling this pain is reassuring in a way. I wish she could feel it. I hope she blows herself up. but it is true. things have changed already. I feel that way less often than i did a month ago. I haven't even really GAL yet. I exercise, i eat and sleep better than I did. I stopped drinking completely. I am in IC. I am pursuing specialists re: a long standing medical condition that I have until now neglected. These are all good - like you going to the gym everyday. But really these things are just filling in the time that I now have. I am thinking about what I really want to DO. I keep coming back to sailing. My friend had a 10 ft sailboat when I was young and I always said I wanted a yacht in preference to a house - until I was in my 20's.My best man chartered a yacht for our wedding present and we sailed it for a week. The best, most relaxing time i have ever had on a holiday. SO i think I will be heading this way. NOT buying a yacht but sailing lessons, hiring, maybe starting out small. we'll see. Is there ANYTHING like that for you?
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
