Last night H had put dinner in the oven for me before I came home. H had picked up S from daycare, also. H and S were playing driveway hockey when I got home.
Had dinner as a family. H made some smart a** remark after I told him I was taking a week off in early May. "I'm taking a month off this year" and I was supposed to be on vacation this WEEK" with OW I'm sure, as I'm sure OW was paying! H just doesn't know when to quit, it bugged me that he said that, didn't let him know. Maybe that he was going to take a week off from work, when he's busy to go somewhere with OW which H never did with me. On the otherhand, I'm guessing "he was supposed to be on vacation" was more a lie than anything else.
The evening was okay. H made a trip to gander mountain, S and I did a few errands. Didn't say a whole lot to me unless he wanted me to do something for him related to hunting/fishing.
H does have cellphone back with him at work. I knew that wouldn't last.
H wouldn't say goodnight last night. We talked a little bit. H asked if H had been on the BB/ "talked with my friends" and did I tell them about him "not finding his way home" Saturday night. I guess the positive from that was that he said "home"
H has been trying to get me mad or should I say trying to find fault with anything I do right now which is probably to be expected. His mood swings back and forth.
H did take the trash out this morning which he hasn't done in a long time. But wouldn't say good bye to me this morning either.
I did call H to have him wake S up this morning by phone. H will talk to S and S will slowly wake up, I think S likes it when H does this and it is kind of cute.
I'm realizing that this is going to take awhile for H to get over OW, get OW out of his life. For some reason I had it my head that when H came home, he'd stop talking/contacting OW becuase he WOULD know this is what he needs to do to get OW out of his system.
Even though the WA comes home, they're not really home yet--is that how it goes and that it will take time. This month is a year ago that H started sneaking around with OW. So I'm thinking back to that time lately.
I think sometimes I try to put a timeline on the process. Okay this many months for H to get over OW, this many months for H to start doing this, etc., etc. I can't do that. No expectations, not looking too far down the road. Just focus on the now.
