Letting go Qs

[Pyrite]

Today I feel sad, and angry. Mostly angry. Angry that she never even tried to fix things. Angry that she seems happy and I feel so alone. Angry that she wasn't strong enough to resist affair and fight for us. Angry that I will never be one of those older couples holding hands and celebrating 30 years of marriage. I feel cheated. I feel like a failure.

I know what I need to do. I know that I can only facilitate my own changes. I know that I will be better off...eventually.

I,m

I'm just upset.

every 2nd minute, hour, day - it is incredibly unfair what the LBS has to go through. and to make it worse my W keeps telling me how much stress she is going through, and it is all my fault. all the while posting happy snaps of herself and my kids playing. and i have to curb my anger? i have to make the effort to be friends? screw that. i had no concept of the enormity of this grief before. i have heard people talk about this cycling of anger, depression etc. but this is INSANE.