We visited relatives where the kids played on a trampoline. Afterwards we went out for the afternoon, which included playing in a park, going into an amusement arcade, having an ice cream as the weather was really lovely, and having a little go on the fair. The kids really enjoyed themselves. We came back, had tea, and went to the park for another kick about with the football. The kids went to bed thoroughly excited about the Easter Bunny coming. I had to explain how the Easter Bunny might not bring all the eggs to one place like he normally does but instead he might be confused and take some to mummy as well. They are excited about double eggs!
At points throughout the day I have thought about W. As I was driving out the kids fell asleep, I was thinking about them, how beautiful they are, how I will do everything I can to see they aren't affected by things, but at the same time I was thinking about the empty passenger seat next to me, and about how we would have previously enjoyed a great family day out on such a lovely spring day as we've had today. Maybe those days will never come again. Who knows? These thoughts don't dominate they day but they do cross my mind. Maybe because it is Easter tomorrow. Maybe because it was such a nice day today. I was going to write how I have been an awful lot better in recent weeks, having not cried in about two weeks (that I remember). However, out of the blue right before bed my D asked if mummy could come out with us next time 'so that we are all together.' I put the kids to bed and shed a little tear after I said goodnight to them. My children are beautiful. I know I speak as a proud father. I hope whatever comes next at least W and I never forget that and act accordingly.
BD - 30TH JAN 2015 S - 30TH JAN 2015 PA CONFIRMED - 16TH FEB 2015 (SINCE AT LEAST OCT 2014) CONTINUAL TALK OF D ME: 31 W: 28 T: 10yrs M: 4.5yrs D:5, S:6
