Reality is my middle name

[123Gwen]

Tomorrow is Easter and in May it will be 1 year since BD.

H just quit job and took another one to move in with OW. Luckily the financial piece is settled so I don't have to talk to him much. right now we must finish up the business of taxes, insurance, etc. --- After all that I imagine the only thing to expect is the direct deposit. Gosh that sounds awful. I loved him for my entire adult life. The man I knew and loved is gone.

Not sure what I am feeling. Relief to be past the financial issues. Anger but not really anywhere to put it. I refused to be dramatic for the last year because it would hurt any financial settlement. Now it would just be sad to act angry so I am alone and I want to release this anger but I am too tired. I am mentally exhausted and my heart can't bleed anymore.