Hi Job, Thank you for reminding me of that damn Kool Aide cocktail that the Dark Lord fed to me and I lapped up for a while!
I guess I still try and process all that has gone on in the last 4 years. It's only been 4 years since we separated and he moved out. Divorced only 3 years.
When he starts acting "normal" it's like Im waking up from a flipping nightmare, and I can't believe how he was acting. It's like I need to do a reality check all over again. Yep. He did all that! It wasn't a nightmare! You are not crazy Kimmerz! It really happened!
I've taken all I've learned, and I feel Im helping a friend at work that's going through the same thing with her husband of 26 years. She's going through a divorce. He started going bonkers MLC style, had affairs, yet claims he still loves her but won't leave this "spring chicken" that he managed to get pregnant, and kept it secret for a year. Ok the Koolaide he tries to get my friend to drink makes my XH look like a beginner. I encourage my friend to not buy into this crap, and to stand strong. Our stories are similar. And honestly I feel good that I survived this, so I can be of some support to someone else.
I feel for her because I see the pain, confusion, hurt, but the will to keep moving on from this man, just as I went through. I know she will be Ok.
In regards to my girls, I think I've finally let go of the anger and resentment I've harbored toward EX H in abandoning us, and leaving me to raise them on my own. I was so worried that I was going to screw them up by not being the perfect mom. But I did ok! Im ok doing this on my own now. We got through this together! And I must've done something right because my girls are so happy and doing so well!
