Alpha One, Alpha All #

[alpha99]

Hi toots,

Thanks for your comments. Usually the sort of red face she had would be an indication of her taking off make up. She had the kids last night but they said they were rushed to bed early when I dropped them back off. I'm not going to speculate really because it could be something or it could be nothing. I know guessing doesn't help.

You're right, things have settled. The toxic air and anger permeating through every contact has gone. All signs indicate to her just being happy with her sitch, single, independent, own place, OM? etc.

I can be consistent. Normally I'm Mr consistent. The frustration is a passing thing, as are the thoughts I have about W during the day. I need to have patience. I know we can't fix things over night. It's just where we are right now I see it going one of three ways; like this indefinitely, or she shows signs of interest, or she shows signs of moving on (D proceedings, bringing OM into the open etc).

I hope whilst I GAL etc I am able to positively alter the outcome through my own changes to reach that point of her giving genuine indication she wants to work on things. That is nowhere in sight now. I know it may never happen.