Just read your last post. RUN from this dude! Don't walk. An image comes to mind - the drowning person you swim out to save, who wraps their arm around you in a chokehold, drowning you both.
EVERYONE has their good points, the tender moments. That can't be an excuse for what you describe above. You describe addiction to alcohol and drugs, a fight where you thought you were going to be hurt, him squandering your assets, attempting cheating and EA, he files for D...let him. That's not a man who wants to be with you or respects you! Despite your warmest memories, he is certainly dragging you down right now, no?
Your H, until he decides to make some changes...this path doesn't go somewhere good, even if you make all of your changes!
Hugs. Wishing you strength, and some bits of joy in your days as a woman free of this.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
