Depress, I truly understand what you are going through, I was there too.
Somebody posted this to me when I was at the beginning of all of this. It helped me, I hope it will help you.
"lost, I can totally empathize with how you are feeling. I had a lot of trouble eating, sleeping, doing anything for those first few weeks.
Let me tell you something that helped me tremendously.
I realized that nobody was coming to save me.
Lost, YOU have to save YOURSELF.
STOP accepting the role of victim.
You said yourself, you have been isolated for too long. Change that. Go out and do things. I don't care what they are. Even if you just go to Starbucks and sit amongst other living beings, even if you don't talk to them.
PLEASE exercise. Force yourself. There were days when I wondered if I would pass out exercising bc I was so tired and so emotionally exhausted. And guess what? I never did, and I felt better afterward.
Are you going to immediately feel all better? No. It doesn't work that way. But as you get into the habit of doing things for yourself, you will start to notice that, bit by bit, you are feeling better.
YOU CAN DO THIS."
Trust me when I say I know how hard this is, but you have to take care of yourself and your kids.
((()))
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since