Part 17 - Edz, living in interesting times

[edz]

Hi v crystalising words as always

In chronographical order.

I'd say coming to terms with the facts that I had been suffering from depression and starting to address that. From there came a better understanding of the reasons for a lot of the problems as well as pain at how it got out of control and latterly now accepting and understanding it. From them of course first being with s again and his first night over then the move going from the pain of splitting the contents to the challenge of moving in and settling and making it a home an ongoing process.

Then son staying over multiple nights in his own room we put together between us reflecting him, making it his home too and a place he likes to be. Him staying in the week sometimes and enjoying and asking to be with me and building a trust and bond again as well as having fun. Finally starting to feel like myself in my body again as the weight starts to come down and I'm at my 2003 weight on my way down and my fitness increases again, taking a pride in my appearance again as the depression is saddled and controlled.

Finally and currently bittersweet glimpses of w behind the barriers she's had as she opens up on how she really felt and how she now is unsure but doesn't discount us. I'm glad the depression and therapy was dealt with before that, honestly hearing those problems and thoughts before I had uncovered and dealt with them wouldn't have been the same positive experience or outcome.

And today feeling ok in my home with just me and a bft, comfortable, reading, relaxing ahead of a busy day tomorrow and watching the rain. I'd love some company but its ok just me for today, for now.

So v about this Indian food, do I need to heat up some plates?

Edz