My fail of sadness....

[Zues126]

BW- most of the time when people say stuff like that they are looking for other people to pick them up and say things that are very reassuring.

Acting sad and hopeless to get others to be comforting and nurturing.

See how this mirrors your depression in the M and how you used it to try to control your W?

Yes, it is possible to work through this. No, it might not go the way you want it to. The future is unknown and you CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO CONTROL HER back in.

So what you need to do now is decide if you can stop with the emotional games and be the strong person you need to be to take the action necessary to give yourself the chance you want. Do you want sympathy or do you want to save your M?

Assuming you're ready to do some real work, then the first thing to do is NOTHING. No immediate action is going to change anything. You can't speed this up, and you can't guarantee success, but you can sure slow it down and blow it up. My 30 days challenge is for you NOT to blow it up. Can you just take care of yourself for a few days or weeks, let some time pass, post some more, read some other stories, and take it as it comes?