I also think that I was really afraid that my W would never accept me because I was so dark and broken. And while many people would think that you'd then be on your "best behavior" all of the time to avoid scaring them off, the opposite is true. Sometimes you are on your "worst behavior" to assure yourself that no matter what they won't leave. Like "if I can be this horrible and they stay with me then I KNOW I'm safe". I "tested the rope" a lot in my M...and it broke.
Does any of this sound familiar?
Again, this is my story, just checking in and getting to know you.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
