Have to agree with most of the posters above. I've said it before, but you really need to detach from your W. Your not really going to be able to R your M in these conditions. There is no transparency and I don't think your W has any interest in it, because she knows you still desire her.
I won't do an update on my stitch in your thread ( I'll do that soon though) , but I really think you need to pull away. I have really detached from my W, and she is almost now pursuing me. The fear of losing me is real. Now I'm in the position of realizing she needs to fix herself before we can work together on a M.
I understand not wanting to detach and being fearful of losing your M. I don't see the need for "I love you's". They don't mean anything at this point. Keep your head up, and detach detach detach. It's long overdue.
