I'm for sure going to go one way or another, God willing. I thought if I go, it would be nice for me and baby. And I was a keen traveller pre baby so this is my ultimate hobby. I was thinking a nice city break near the beach, nice Spanish Island. I just started to doubt myself now I have pretty much established that he is feeling pushed out by lack of attention. By not inviting him I felt I was starving him of more attention. I get so confused at times- I know DBing works and it is supposed to seem like it would be so counterintuitive- but in a situation where he's gone wayward due to lack of my attention. Is me detaching and GALing not going to make him feel even more pushed out?
He came home late. Came to see baby, asked him how his day went.. He didn't say too much, we did have a bit of general chit chat. There's a point when he sounded like himself- like he was almost laughing and there was happiness in his voice. Then he switches and goes sort of moody. Then mutters he's going to go get something to eat. I made sure I kept myself upbeat, cheery- like I'm in a great mood.
I don't know if this long weekend is a good thing or not. H is off fri, sat, sun, mon. He said he wants to spend a day with me and baby. But he's going out fri and returning Saturday, with "the guys" trying not to think is he really with OW. Telling myself that knowing is not going to make me feel better. Going to plan some things to do with baby. I seem to find weekends wondering what he's up to.. I try not to- and busy myself but these thoughts have a habit of creeping in.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16