You're one of the most inspirational people on this board. I know that may be no small comfort since you're still waiting in limbo for an answer from you H. If I may let me say this: you already have an answer. You show here in your posts that you are an incredibly strong and resilient person and you will be fine regardless of what happens and you will be happy again in the future - with or without H. I do hope you get whatever you want from all of this.
Alpha
BD - 30TH JAN 2015 S - 30TH JAN 2015 PA CONFIRMED - 16TH FEB 2015 (SINCE AT LEAST OCT 2014) CONTINUAL TALK OF D ME: 31 W: 28 T: 10yrs M: 4.5yrs D:5, S:6