Wife ready to walk away

[Miler]

Thanks ya'll. Im' slowly starting to feel myself get there. The letting go/detaching is hard...but REALLY important. It's like being a smoker for 15 years and just quitting one day. There is this whole detox that goes along with this separation...physically and emotionally.

Each morning before I go in to work now, I go for a 20 minute run, I shower, I try to meditate for 15 minutes, then I read for an hour (right now I am reading When Things Fall Apart). This morning when I came down to leave for work, she asked... Whatcha got going on today? I kept it short and said, clinic and then track practice with the kids. She said oh yeah...I've been noticing you've been going in to work a little later than usual this pat week. I responded with, yep, I'm taking some time for me, focusing on the things I need to deal with in my life to make me the best person and father I can be. She smiled, said, cool, and sort of agree. I immediately turned and said hope you have a good day. It felt good in that moment to admit to myself and the world, that I am working on me right now, and that's it. Trying to get centered and better myself.