There are a lot of positives going on in my life right now, but I still cried a little last night after I talked to H on the phone. I recently got a new job--it's actually my dream job and will work really well for me and the kids and long term, as I get promoted, etc.--it will provide stability for me and the kids if this situation goes the way I think it will. Anyway, I had to get a bunch of documents together for HR and there were a couple of things I couldn't find in our file where we keep things like birth certificates, SS cards, etc. and other important papers. I called H since his company changed hands last year and he was in the file last looking for his birth certificate, but my goodness, what a pointless call! He was like "Why are you calling me?" A couple of people have 2x4ed me (is 2x4 a verb now? LOL!) here for calling H for unnecessary reasons, but I actually really needed my SS card and my birth certificate and they weren't there! I just wanted to see if he'd seen them, but my gosh, you can't even ask this guy a question right now. He is just so MEAN! I said maybe I could use our marriage license as one of the forms of ID and had to bite my lip hard from saying "at least it's good for something!"
So yeah, I'm so excited about starting this new job and a possible new chapter in my life and my children's lives. But I am sad abut the separation. Very sad. More sad than I expected I would be with all these awesome things on the horizon. Seems the universe never wants you to have it all. But I know that's the wrong attitude. Happiness is up to me whether H is here or not. Gratitude is the attitude I want to embrace, not anger and bitterness. I have a lot to be grateful for.
Last edited by Lorelai; 04/02/1504:50 PM.
Me: 38 H: 43 Kids: 2,4 T10 M6 BD: 1/14 11/14: H moves out
