Alpha One, Alpha All #

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Looks like we are all sitting in the same boat. Invited for Easter
I don't have anything to your plan. Just don't overthink anything. Just forget about all the things and enjoy yourself that day. That's the best advice I can give.

You are stil too focused on your W. You need to work on this! I went through the same thing. I'm sure you'll get there. There are a lot of milestones, one for me was very recent where I just do not care about my future anymore (R wise) and I know what I want from my life and I got confident enough to know that I can have it. With or without W. Also to understand what love means.
What it basically means is: you stop being reactive, hand over your destiny to God and focus on yourself. Because YOU is the center of all the good things you can do in life, affecting others in a positive way. It's not selfish, it's a start of something greater. So please take the focus off your W. Even off your kids (to a certain extend)..find to yourself!!!
I know you have what it takes.