Depress, go slow, you want your H back and he could see the your game about another man in the picture. You end up showing all your desperation. And then you talk on the phone and he can see that you are begging him to came back home, to you.
I know you want to say all this, and you want this to be true. But please, be careful. And don't make it worse and push him away from you.
It took me a long time to understand that I should to let go in order to have some chance my H may come back home.
My H tells me he loves me, he can't leave without me and when we are together we hug, kiss and make a very beautiful love. Then he leaves, keep himself away for awhile and after about two weeks he comes back and I give in, the whole cycle start all over.
In the same time he says he loves me, he is also still seeing his OW. Now, after breaking my heart and disrupting my life for so many times, I decided that I need to enforce my boundaries and do not give in again.
H will taste some distance from me, he needs to think that I am moving on with my life. I won't let him see my tears, my sadness, my desire to see him coming back. All what he will see is that I am dialing with my life and he is not the center of it.
Be patient and try to see things the way they really are. It's one day at a time. Give your H some space, you want him back when he is ready to come back.
