I wonder if he was sincere when he made the initial gesture. Sometimes, in my opinion, I think they have these moments of clarity...speak sincerely...THEN. RETREAT! RETREAT! Or, in Monty Python Speak..."Run Away! Run Away!" Back to being bastard-ly devils. That's their default now, after years of bad behavior.
I'm glad you are in a good place to handle the ups and downs.
Do you get a feeling of hope when he appears his ol' self again? I can't imagine being able to let go completely, especially when seeing glimpses of the person I loved.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
