Depress, I know it might not seem like it right now but it really does get better. In mid/late January I was a complete wreck. I lost almost 40 lbs that first month because I couldn't eat, sleep, or function at all. I just cried all day and was basically suicidal.

I remember one night very vividly laying on the couch with tears flowing down my face praying to God to just let me die. It's not that I wanted to die, I just didn't want to live anymore.

Now I'm in such a better state I don't even recognize myself. Give yourself some time and it will get easier. You will become stronger and stronger as times goes on and you survive each day. The pain is still there up but it begins to be overshadowed by your strength.

Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be