Being deceived by WAW, in need of some coaching

[skr4luv]

"If I haven't come across this board, I'd probably have forgiven her for meeting with OM and praticed more patience for her recovery."

First of all, you shouldn't blame the board. You haven't read the books so you are applying the DB principles incorrectly and are not taking the advice given in the context they are supposed to be taken based on the books.

"I'm now pushing her towards the OM and I have to focus on a future without her."

That was your decision. No one told her to issue her an ultimatum. That was all on you.

Could you have survived this? Absolutely. And you still can.

The bottom line is that what's done is done. She couldn't break her ties, and it's on her. What are you going to do with yourself from here on out? Are you going to change?

I didn't mean to blame the board at all. I just read many advices where I thought I had to set this firm boundary. From what I've picked up here is that W is losing respect and if I would have forgive her and moved on again, she would just continue what she was doing. Also theory's like a WAW needs space and the feeling of losing the LBS to get out of the fog, made me respond to her like that.
Man I don't know...

Anyway, I actually got DB and DR today. I'm gonna read DR tonight, as W isn't at home.

I'm def going to change. I wanna become a better version for myself. But I'm still struggling about my situation with the W and what I want. Do I want to move on and focus on a future without her, or do I want her to come back begging for R. Every time she spends a night at the OMs place, she turns me off more and more. But then when I see her and she's acting all sweet and nice it makes me forget her "mistakes".