Alpha One, Alpha All #

[alpha99]

Well, I loaded up my IM app and since it shows the last time that people have logged on I can see that neither W or OM had been online for hours. Now, at this time W would have put the kids to bed, and both are online at the same time, with the few minutes I had a look showing they were on/off, on/off - clearly as they open the app to respond to messages every minute or two. I know mind reading is no good and at this point she can do what she wants, but it still hurts to think that she is (most likely) having heart to heart chats, playful banter, maybe even sending pictures to each other as I type these very words...

I am learning to deal with that because there is nothing I can do about it. I don't feel as devastated as I did when finding out about the affair - after all they would appear to be chatting rather than having sex right now. That doesn't stop it hurting though.