W has shown no indication whatsoever of having a change of heart or wanting to do anything R wise. As I've said, she is in contact still with OM, within the last week described each other as best friends, and was seemingly in contact with him only yesterday. She has mentioned recently little things that make me think he is holding out on a R with her but using her for sex when he feels like. I also get the impression that she would love a R with him based of her saying things like 'he's a player and he won't commit.' I think she is bang in the middle of affair fog right now. I'm sure her sudden softer approach is simply a result of her having fell out with her mother and needing more help in minding the kids so she can work - nothing else.
The key thing for me will be ensuring the children have a great Easter.
I do 'hope' that some time together without fighting/R talks etc as a family might rekindle something inside her. I have zero expectation of it. I will be cool, calm, no getting upset, no R talks etc etc. I've said that before but now I feel certain I can be bright and breezy without getting upset at some point.
I can see myself feeling low afterwards if things go well over the weekend, as strange as that may sound. I've built up a resistance to the anger she displays towards me. If we happen to have a decent time, I think coming away afterwards would be tough. I am going over and over the bit of LRT where it says if S shows some interest etc not to get overly excited. I know she hasn't shown interest but spending time together and getting on well has the potential to spark some overexcitedness in me. I'm aware of its potential and so I need to develop a strategy for it. I plan to not stay too long with the kids on Sunday at her place, keep interaction with W low, focus on the kids, and leave without dragging things out.
BD - 30TH JAN 2015 S - 30TH JAN 2015 PA CONFIRMED - 16TH FEB 2015 (SINCE AT LEAST OCT 2014) CONTINUAL TALK OF D ME: 31 W: 28 T: 10yrs M: 4.5yrs D:5, S:6
