Alpha One, Alpha All #

[alpha99]

I've had W call me a few times this morning. I missed her calls and so then she rang the landline.

When we spoke she was far more pleasant than she has been in weeks. There was no animosity, no fighting, no talking of trust etc. It felt like the turning of a new page. I'm not naive enough to forget that only yesterday she was still being incredibly angry with me. However, this does feel like the beginning of the next chapter.

W rang and texted ostensibly to see that the children were fine and they went to school OK. I think I am earning her trust again. I am now going to have the kids Thursday for a few hours after school, Fri after school and overnight, all day Saturday, and then drop them off Sunday morning. Since Sunday will be Easter, W has asked me if I want to go back to her house after the kids return from church in the morning to spend some time with them on Easter Sunday. I have accepted.

During our phone call she made a point that it is so much better not to be fighting, and so much better for the children not to see us arguing. I agree. In the back of mind I'm well aware that she is at the very least still in contact with OM. Although I come here and my posts are focused on my W and sitch, I do feel I'm doing a good job of starting to move on in my life. I will be working again from next week. I will have the kids on set days. As per LRT I'm not contacting wife but she is contacting me. Her invite for Easter is not a supervisory thing but rather a chance to spend time together with the kids...and her...all together. I'm not getting carried away with anything at all, not for even a second, but this does feel like a turning point. I don't feel the urge to harass her into talks about R etc. I feel for the first time like I could be around her and actually follow through on what I should have been doing for a while, that is treat her like a friendly neighour, no more, no less. If everything from BD to now has been a steady worsening with heavy jolts of worsening along the way, I feel like this is where the banging the head against the wall is going to stop. I feel like now it's time to begin reversing that damage. Let's hope I'm not posting in a day or two to say I've blown it!

Instead of our call ending with the now cursory and barely audible 'bye', it ended with 'OK, I've got to go, see you on Thursday, bye'.