Confused & mix messages part 2

[Cherry]

Thank you jefe. I'm really working on me for my own sanity. When h first dropped the bomb he said "you've changed" and I honestly didn't beliene I had. It's only since that I've had a look at myself and thought "my gosh when did I become this person?!". I am doing lots to get me back and make me positive and get my passion for life back. I have ic today for the first time. I am feeling quite positive about myself and planning vacays! I'm quite happy to becoming me again.
I have stopped messaging him unless absolutely necessary eg about baby, and I have noticed a couple times he has messaged me to say where he is or that he will be home.
His character is still nothing near him though, he is quite moody but not reading into it.
Thanks for the tip re 37 rules. In my note section of my phone I have a few inspirational pieces like the lighthouse story. And I also have great faith in God, I believe this is a test, and I believe that we should be a couple.

I just wish he could end this ea and find his way back. This woman is all the things he usually dislikes in a woman! But I guess she's listening the way I havenf.