Complex No. 6 - The turtle and the rabbit

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Still staying busy and feeling OK. IC told me today that I made very good progress. She likes to see how much better I am doing every single time.
Meds suck a bit right now because I have crazy dreams since a few days. W and OM very present in my dreams last few days, don't sleep too well. But I can manage.

Interestingly W and I are very friendly with each other last couple of days (in the few moments we actually cross our paths). No serious talk but she's pretty warm, looking at me like she likes me or sth. Maybe just imagination but things are better. I let her live, no control whatsoever. Guess it makes her feel more comfortable. Doesn't seem like she's doing anything with OM or is dating, nor is she going out much at all. She just seems normal right now. I don't know what she's thinking right now. Enough of her tho.

Greencard process started. Got a letter. No idea how long it's gonna take. W still seems anxious about it.

I have no idea what is going to happen when I receive the greencard....but honestly neither do I care right now.
I don't want to think of the ifs at the moment. I feel more carefree about the future. I know what I want, what I don't want, what I'm doing, why I'm doing it and where I want to be. Feel like I have a good attitude right now, but I'm aware of that if things develop in an undesired way, I'll get my throwbacks. But what can I do.

Comments appreciated.

I'll start a new thread soon.