Depress honey, don't be so hard on yourself right now. It takes time, it takes a lot of work.
When you think you are doing better, then it suddenly hits you hard. Memories, toughs that comes to you, important dates. Don't let yourself go into crazy mode. Take one day at a time.
Sometimes, if it's better to keep quite and feel a little sad, then give the space to be like that too.
Believe me, it's very hard. Not only because of the separation, but you are hurt too. So be gentle with yourself.
With time, things start going into place, you start thinking a little more clear and start thinking about what you do that works better and what does not work.
Try to be calm, don't react to everything, instead think of how you can behave in front of your H. Remember who was the person that he fell in love in the first place.
Once he start seeing you stronger, he will start thinking too. But this will take time, even more then you would like. It's not a sprint, it's a marathon.
Start slow, plan some schedule that works for you and the kids. Get help from some close friends. Speak with a few people that you trust, so you will not feel like exploding.
It will be hard, but if you are here is because you are a strong person that is decided to work hard for your M. You have strong values, you are worthy.
Take easy and be patient with yourself. Avoid big fights with your H. Try to agree on things for the kids. It's very important that they have a normal life and it can be right now.
It's tough job. You need to be strong for yourself and for your kids, you need to protect them now.
You can do it, just go easy and be consistent.
Take care. Did you change the meds? Try to start with small dosages and see if you can control yourself. Drugs are good at this time, but high dosages will interfere in your normal self.
