So where to start, today has been a tough tough, day. I woke up missing W. I almost feel like I have regressed, bUT I know it's a phase that has to be processed. I began packing things up at the house. Very tough moment; knowing things are actually moving on. I know it's better than sitting in limbo but if only you could will things to be better!!!! Wouldn't that be an amazing idea.. instead we are left with knowing what if's don't work and we are powerless to influence anything but our own actions and growth. I still see my W as my W and that is perhaps the struggle. I know I am no longer her H in her eyes. to just flip that switch doesn't work, even after the pain she has caused me.
It's a weird feeling, waffling back and forth like this. I know my course, I have a plan, but my goodness I miss my friend. I want to thank all of you for your support. I know "This to Shall Pass!"
I would like some input on a thought. I am moving what is the concensus on me taking photos of us when I move. I was planning on leaving them for her but there is a part of me that wants some. What is best for the long run. Or am I asking a question I know the answer to.
Sorry today has been tough, and I have so many memories to pack away in the coming month, I just pray for strength.
