Alpha One, Alpha All #

[alpha99]

I take on board all your criticism. You're right, saying I'm better than my W doesn't solve anything. I do believe there are valid criticisms of her but I need to find better ways of expressing my displeasure, and on many occasions of course biting my tongue and saying nothing at all.

W is still in contact with OM. I know this for sure. We were at parents evening and as ever she was on her phone. I caught a glimpse of her sms list. The second one down (so second most recent) was OM.

Later on outside I said I had seen her phone and asked was she still seeing OM. She was angry I had seen her phone but answered she isn't with him, he hasn't been to the house, and they are just friends. She said I had a cheek asking. I said when it comes to who is around my children I believe I have a right to know.

She is very mistrusting of me. She talks of my constant threatening behaviour, which is ridiculous. Twice when upset I have said I'd expose her affair. Not in weeks have I done that. If I say anything that doesnt agree completely with her then I'm threatening her and being nasty in her eyes. She hesistated over allowing me having the children at the school, saying I had an evil look. She said she couldn't trust me, her dad said she shouldn't trust me as far as she could throw me, that I might run away with the kids. Does any of this sound crazy or is it just me?

I did take the kids as it turns out. Not before she was going to call her folks to see if it was alright. She vented her anger once more, I largely just took it, validated it, said again I've no hidden agenda. Ultimately we agreed to try and be nice with one another.