Mahhhty - Your post is heartbreaking. I welled up.

The retweet was very hurtful, I'm sure. You must wonder what kind of an awful man you were. My WW keeps blogging and talking about women empowerment and girl power since she left me. It stays on my mind for hours and days (I stopped following her though). She left saying that she would be a model (of strength?) for our two daughters. It makes me feel like cr@p.

It's good that you don't know what she's doing. In my case, the slightest contact or bit of information brings me down.

What you need is to focus on yourself. It's not news, but my approach to it has recently changed: instead of just being busy, I try to find things that I really enjoy. You know, like when it's your birthday and you wear your favorite clothes and eat your favorite food. But every day. This week-end, I wore a tie with jeans because I love it, but never dare to do it. I felt great.

Finding what I love is a process, made harder by habits, and sometimes I remember stuff that I love that I had set aside. I feel like now is a time of permissions, of doing things that intrigued me, that amuse me, that scare me even. Hopefully you can find your way there.


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"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.